Cribbing.. Am I?

I used to hate this word cribbing, but then I guess I have started cribbing. And have been doing it continuously for the past few months.

I have been so much into my own problems that I've forgotten that other people might also just want a shoulder to cry on or someone to hear them out.

My cribbing and my mood swings have taken a toll on my friends also. I've hurt them in all possible ways. In fact I would say I've taken them so much for granted and never given a thought that they might also need me. They have started getting irritated.

Everyone has problems, and no problem is so big that it cannot be resolved. I guess I've got into the habit of taking problems onto myself and then gaining some self pity. I've become a person who wants continuous consolation.

No, this cannot be me. I've been in this battle with life.

This is my promise to you that I will stop cribbing and be back on track...

I still love life and its problems ;)

Friendship...

I believe friendship is never created, nor do you specifically search out for friends. It is like love, just happens.

You meet someone, you talk and then it clicks. If it doesn’t you just smile and leave. To meet again without any feelings, just a 'Hi!'

When I landed up in Pune, I had no friends. I was totally lost for some time. My mom told me to make friends and not be alone.

I was not looking out for friends. As usual I was 'All By Myself'. But, I was not introvert this time. I went out of the way talking to people, just making acquaintances. I talked to people who joined with me. I talked to people travelling in the bus with me. Believe me, coming from my side, it was a huge effort.

But, one is never alone. I did click with few people and have made some good friends. And with that learnt few lessons in life. Good Ones and Bad Ones.

The first and foremost is that friendship is a give-give relationship. One should not treat it as a give and take where in if you have done so much, the other person should also reciprocate in the same manner and as much. It doesn't work this way. It becomes a business then.

The second thing I have learnt is expect nothing. The day you do, you'll be hurt. And that comes from sheer experience.

I am not too experienced in life. It's still a learning phase. Some people whom I assumed to be friends are not and others are. We believe that we are good in judging people, but in the end we are all human beings and can make mistakes.