Have you ever been on a ride that has a lots of twists and turns, goes fast, slows down and suddenly picks up speed. You never know what comes next. You just hold your breath to face the next moment. When it slows down, you feel a tinge of joy that it's over, but no it speeds up again.
Yes we all have been on that and will be. It's called LIFE. Today I feel my life to my nothing other than that roller coaster ride. I'm waiting for all the twists and turns to get over. But, I also know this when it's done with I will want more of it. ...And so is life..
If I look back, the time from when I entered a new phase of life called Marriage, I've been in this roller coaster ride. My life has changed a lot in the past 3.5 years. Yes, been married for that short a period. But, in that time itself I've changed 4 locations and 3 jobs. I've been in and out of job. I've gone through my highs and lows.
Right now, the twists and turns that are giving a churn in my stomach is my job. I have a job still I don't have it. I'm in a limbo state. I'm waiting to get a new project, but it has so many factors to it. Hope I get in same city, hope I get in a nearby location, hope I don't have to drive and hope I can do it. I'm in short lacking a bit in confidence and I guess a lot of things. As usual, this is a phase for me and it will pass on. But, until then I've to wait for this uncertainty to get over.
Few days back I was having a conversation with a dear friend. Where in I was trying to convince my dear friend that marriage is good. While my friend kept giving me the good things of being single. I wonder if that conversation changed my friend's mind or not, but it did for me. I started wondering I was so happy when I was single. Just catering to my needs. Being independent in all aspects of life. No it's not that I am being stopped, but then I have a responsibility now. I and my partner are together in it. I'm not alone. I am no longer a bachelor. And before one deduces anything, I love him dearly. It's just that thinking about those days give me a kick.
I am still waiting for that day, when the ride will slow down. I will be in India and will have a decent job. I know the ride will again take a turn, but I'm waiting for that slow down.
