Where's the "Glow" gone?

I was talking to Dhruv the other day and I said, "Somehow my recent photos do not show any glow on my face. I wonder why?" I look back at my travel photos from San Francisco, Maine, Paris and Rome and I feel happiness from within. But, when I look at my photos from IIFA, Miami, Smoky Mountains, and Grand Canyon, I feel am lacking the spirit. 

So what's changed?

I know that from my initial photos, I was newly married, I was working, I was in India at a particular moment and I knew I would be in India at some point of time.

And now, I left the job and came here to join Dhruv, I had a year's stint to be at home, I moved out of India, I started working but not quite satisfied (which ideally I should).

Why am I lacking that glow? I'm definitely not SAD, but I think I'm not that HAPPY even. There is so much anxiety in my mind. Uncertainty of what's going to happen next? Wait, to get back to India and settle down. Longing to have a respectable job where I feel some accomplishments and satisfaction.

This again is a part of life, everyone has their ups and downs. I'm in that phase where I feel it's not up but it's definitely not down. Being not in the job was one of the "down-phase" for me. So, I've definitely come up on that.

I guess I will have to bring in more positivism to my outlook and perception on how I things. I need to learn to appreciate things around myself. 

Hope I get the "Glow" back!!